Life Theory

It has been said to me that teenagers are not expected to have come up with any kind of theory on life. It's a ludicrous notion, a pipedream, expecting kids to know what they want out of their existence, what they want to accomplish. I am all for debunking myths and cliches...

I know exactly what I think of life.

I truly believe that we only have one life to live. And I firmly support the old maxim of living each day to its fullest potential. One of my most serious goals is to live life without regret. I want to be able to look upon everything that happens in my life as a learning experience. While it's true that there is such a thing as an accident, I don't think that mistakes exist. I can't say that everything happens for a reason, that goes against almost everything I believe. But I think that every decision we make has an effect on who we are. I have made huge mistakes in the past, I look upon them with such embarrassment, but if I had never made them, I wouldn't know some of the things I know now. I don't think that anyone would bother to contest it: a person can't grow if he or she doesn't make choices and take risks.

I try to always be busy, to make so many accomplishments in one day, and it is ultimately fulfilling. I'm so happy with life. I search for love and joy, and find it all around. And I truly believe that love is something that everyone wants. We need to be understood and appreciated. We are all so much a like, and I don't think that a lot of people realize it. We're so caught up in our own lives. And I think a lot of the hatred and the ignorance in the world is result of selfishness and greed. If we just accepted our common human bonds, we'd be happier as a people. (These are such basic simple thoughts. They are depressing ideals. If only we could abolish ignorance... Now I'm lost in my own dreamworld.)

Another thing that I intend to do with my life is attempt to better the world around me. I look around and I see so much wrong with our society. So many people starving and unemployed. So many dying from incurable diseases. I want to make a difference. And for a long while I wanted to be famous, and that was partly because the public listens to famous people. Famous people have power. Kids want to grow up to be Rosie O'Donnell or Jean Claude Van Damme. I can't help remembering that one person can't make a difference, but we might as well try. If for no other reason, but so that we can feel that we attempted, that we did the most we could while we were here to make the world a better place. I think compassion and understanding are two of the best traits that a person can have.

Even though I am an atheist, I think so much about Jesus. And I really value the lessons he taught. "Let he among you without sin cast the first stone." "Love one another." "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." I wish I could keep this in mind more often. And I wish others would practice what they claim to preach.

I try to see the beauty in every thing around me. I try to take in every experience and every moment of the day. I cherish the relationships I have with others, and with myself. And I want so much to pay attention to the little details, the tiny joys of life. But my most important goal is to be happy. Just to be happy as much as I can. And to live a happy life. I used to be so depressed and gruesome. I look back on some of my very early poetry and I find it ludicrous that I was once so unhappy. I love laughing and having a good time now. And life is good.

Carpe Diem. What a wonderful world.

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